Thursday, February 04, 2016

Life, as I Know it

Hello blog, it's been quite a long time since I've written in this page.

For me, time has been my biggest enemy this past year.
Working whilst having to squeeze an hour to brestpump. (Minimizing my guilty feeling of not being there for my baby boy, that's all. Aside all the benefits of breastfeeding thou.)
At home, there will always be this and that to do, cleaning, organizing, cooking, playing with my boy, and of course breastfeeding. Not to forget, there's also my man, my husband, that needs attention.

So, there goes my time.

no more books read.
less new music i knew about.
no more movie date at the cinema.
less tv.
and the list goes on..

but then again, no regrets about it.
Having a family to raise, was every young woman's dream. Having a chance to be pregnant, then giving birth to a beautiful baby boy, was a blessing. Now that I know Allah loves me that much.
Having a wonderful and loving husband was also the dream. He seldom complains. When I'm too tired to cook, he'll be the one cooking, or ordering food for us. When I'm too busy with Azam, our little boy, he'll be cleaning the house.

What's there to complain about?

Well, I, my self is an ordinary human being. Who stills have dreams and desires.

Life has been wonderful in my nearly 30 years of living. I've been through the ups and downs.
Not to mention the disappointment. The heartbreaks.
But there has always been more happy days, days that I'm grateful about. Days where saying Alhamdulillah won't be enough.

As we live, we will strive to do anything that needs to be done to survive.
Survive being a child, a wife, a mother and a worker at the same time.
Still trying to manage being all of that at the same time. But I always know that, this is my choice, and I'm going to do the best I can to make it work. :)