A Quick Update on Me..

Wow.. It has been months since I last opened and wrote in my blog.
Well, I've been a bit busy with things, doing this and that.
Busy watching DVDs (hahaha.. :D), reading novels, and of course still working and teaching English at the same time.

In these few months, I have followed some more recruitment processes. But, since I'm still here, you can just guess that I don't get any of them. But I won't give up trying though... It's worth trying for something better. Right?

A good news is that, I got a (small) raise at my part time job as an English teacher and more classes to teach. So, at least I can save more money for my future or just for going on a nice long holiday somewhere.. Hehehehe.. :D

Another bad news is that I didn't get the scholarship that I was applying for. The Australian Scholarship to be exact. So, I just kissed good bye to study in Oz next year. Well, I guess I'll try again next year.

Hmmm.. What else should I share? There's nothing new in my love life. Still being single and happy.. Hahaha.. ;P

So, catch u later...

Coba Katakan

by Maliq & d'Essentials

Coba, coba katakan kepadaku
bahwa kita sedang berjalan menuju satu alasan..
Janganlah kau katakan
bila kita memang tak ada tujuan dari apa yang dijalankan..

Aku tak ingin terus terdiam,
memandangi harapan..
Terlena akan manis cinta,
dan berujung kecewa..
Aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti..
Lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini...

Coba, coba katakan kepadaku
sekali lagi bila kita memang benar akan kesana..
Buktikan dan buatlah ku percaya
bahwa kita bisa berujungkan bahagia...

Oh...
Habis sudah semua rangkai kata..
Telah terungkap semua yang kurasa..
Yang kuingin akhir yang bahagia...

Aku tak ingin terus terdiam,
memandangi harapan..
Terlena akan manis cinta,
dan berujung kecewa..
Aku tak ingin terus menunggu sesuatu yang tak pasti..
Lebih baik kita menangis dan terluka hari ini...


***
Love the songs and lyrics..
Can't stop singing.. ;P

Weddings

This year there are so many people I know who ties the knot. Yup they're getting married.

From my family, I've got around five cousins who got married this year. Four has already done, another will come in November.
I'm really happy for my lovely cousins thou... :D

Other invitations comes from my friends..
There are around three weddings that I should attend. One was my best friend's. It was last week. I am really happy for her, that she's starting a new life now.. :)
I also met some old friends from high school and middle school in her party. It was great...

Actually, since I was a kid, I used to accompany my parents to weddings. I used to like it. But now, I started to not enjoy it. Why? Because people will start asking, " When will you get married, za?".. hahaha... I will just answer " Hopefully soon, just pray for me". Hahahha... I started to get bored answering it...
So, we'll just wait and see, when the time will come.. :P

Oxygen

by Colbie Caillat

I came apart inside a world made of angry people
I found a boy who had a dream
Making everyone smile
He was sunshine
I fell over my feet
Like bricks underwater

How am I supposed to tell you how I feel
I need oxygen
Oh baby if I was your lady?
I would make you happy
I'm never gonna leave, never gonna leave
Oh baby I will be your lady
I am going crazy for you

And so I found a state of mind
Where I could be speechless
I had to try it for a while
To figure out this feeling
This felt so right
Pull me upside down to a place
Where you've been waiting

How am I supposed to tell you how I feel
I need oxygen
Oh baby if I was your lady
I would make you happy
I'm never gonna leave,
Never gonna leave
Oh baby I will be your lady
I am going crazy for you

And you don't wanna keep me waiting
Staring at my fingers feeling like a fool

Oh baby I will be your lady
I will make you happy
I'm never gonna leave,
Never gonna leave
Oh baby I will be your lady
I'm going crazy, yeah-oh

Tell me what you want,
Baby tell me what you need
Anything I ask baby give it to me
Baby give it to me, give it to me

I came apart inside a world made of angry people
I found a boy who had a dream
Making everyone smile

***
I need oxygen so badly honey.. Hehehehe.. ^_^

Why do I Love Him?

I love him...
For the fact that he cares for me and my silly dreams... ^_^

I do love him for his silly and adventurous thoughts of life..

I really love how he adores me...
For being me, the daydreamer, energetic, narcistic and cheerful me...

I'll always love him for listening to my wishes and hopes...

I'll never stop loving him, just if he loves me back.. :)
Cause I'll be the love, that never lies..
Never loose the courage to try to love him..

I love him from being the guy of my dreams..
My knight in shining armour...
I love you for being you...

Pekanbaru, 10pm, 31st May 2009

Alhamdulillah.. Thanks for the things that happened to me this month ^_^

Alhamdulillah is all I can say maybe thousand times this months...
Since there has been soooo many things that had happened to my life this month, May 2009.
I got my dream job, I met 'someone' new, get more English learning experiences in my IELTS preparations class and last, on the final day of this month, the 31st of May, I won on our girls monthly reunion called SBM 2007 girl's ARISAN. ^_^

I got a quite big amount of money, because every member has to pay 200 thousands of Rupiahs every month. This months is our second Arisan. It's held in Fish&Co, Pacific Place, Jakarta... I never attend any of the to meetings with the girls... I just transfer the money to Jojo these two months. And this afternoon neng Dzanny sms me that I won the Arisan with two other ladies, Iin and Karin..

So, we really should meet up in the following week, okay gurls?!?!!!
see you then everyone...
IMU all...

*smooch...
-zhaza..

Achieve Some. Expect More

The Very Moment, When Allah SWT Starts to Answer My Prayers, One at a Time ^_^

Yes, in this time of my long journey of life. I've come to the time when I'll always say, what ever happens will be the best for me and everyone around me.

From the day that I graduated, I always dreamed to get my dream job. And I did.

I started my career as a Liaison Officer for Festival Film Indonesia 2007 in Riau. One of the biggest event in Indonesia's entertainment world. That time I was escorting VJ Mike Lucock and Sissy Prescillia (I got it right, didn't I mba Sissy?). And it was the job of my dreams, being around famous people. It's not that this is rare in my life now. Since I've met the owner of around 15 FOs in Bandung, Mr. Perry. And I also had Nyoman Nuarta on my first Ramadhan in Bandung. And the fact that Sarah Sechan. Yes, the Sarah Sechan, my favorite MTv VJ aside Jamie Aditya. She was the guess lecture on my communication class. And even the king of event organizer has come to our beloved campus, SBM ITB, yes, Adrie Subono. Not to mention, the author of my favorite books, Leading in Crisis. Robby Johan, yes the one behind the merger of 3 government banks and formed Bank Mandiri. He also fixed Garuda Indonesia Airlines when it was facing a huge loss and made it even better now. And finally
I met Chairul Tanjung, the CEO of TransCorp. I adore him for being a dentist and end up to become a business tycoon. Two thumbs up to everyone of them!! =)

Then, I got another fun job. Teaching English to Elementary School Students. This is so fun, that I never considered to stop doing it. I even applied as teaching assistant for the first semester in 2010. Back to SBM again, the beginning. Where I started to dream for bigger things.

And the fact that now, I have 3, yes THREE, jobs at a time, and planning to give up one in June. And I kinda found my dream job. Doing something I really understand. Quality and Performance Management. And I nailed this opportunity just by doing one simple thing. Trying to loose more weight by exercising. And I did, I've lost approximately 17 kilos since I graduated from ITB. And this caught me to fix the quality and performace problems in RSUD Arifin Achmad, Riau Province. Yes, FYI, now I'm the Secretary of the Attendings Clinic in the ISO 9001:2008 certification process.

So, here I am being thankful for what Allah SWT did to my long and continuous journey of life.
Just to give me an opportunity to become a way better person, in every aspect in my life.

To make it simple. In this university of Life, just try to always make a SWOT analysis on every problem you face. Consider your strength and opportunities. Then find your weaknesses and threads your gonna face in the near future. Try to find solutions, simple things that will make life easier. And then see what will happen next. ^_^

***
An effect of too many Mario Teguh Golden Ways and following sessions of Tafsir Al-Qur'an. While trying to be Ikhlas for every small loss that I face in my long and never ending journey of life. ^__^

XOXO,
Zaza
Http://awonderfuljourney.blogspot.com
Saman of Nusantara's Bunga Rampai on Oddisey 2005
Formasi Bunga of Nusantara's Bunga Rampai
When I took them back to the Airport after 24hours together.. Kinda miss that time guys, always remember that Sunday of FFI meet and greet every thime I went to Ciputra Seraya... :)
Our Though Team of young generations who always tries to makes a different.. Keep Up the Good Work guys! ;P
Hmmm...
can't wait to spent one of these days sistas, wa...
of course with lucky out of the picture..
and Wildan adn Danel also there two..
& hopefully me and Icha will get there soon.. ;-P
Ciwidey..
IPA 1 SmunSa 2004...Miss everyone of youuu... Esp when we prepare the Cleopatra series... :D
WE meet again after 14 years...hahahaha.... Tikii...
Love ur devious, sarcastic and smart way to solve our problems! Now-Buy-a-ticket-and-come-here-missy!! ;P
Our first job seeking after our garduations day on Oct 2007.. :D
my all time favorite people in my life who taught me about what best friends means! Can't wait for Juli guys! ;P

Coming Soon: Gading-Gading Ganesha (3G)

Congratulating my Final Project Counselor for the Release of his 2nd Novel!
Really proud to have been supervised by you, Our future SBM ITB Dean!
I'll be there on the Launching, and really looking forward to it...
Jia You, Lao Shi! (mudah2an bener ;-P)

"Mystery Love Story" Part II

Posting ini berhubungan dengan post gw sebelumnya, "Definitely. Maybe. From My Side".

Nah yang sekarang lebih mebahas tiga orang yang pernah berstatus: Pacar - HTSan - Future Partners...

Nah, di kelas tambahan IELTS gw yg terakhir sebelum Simulation Test ke II kita. Qta belajar: Reading for Academic Purposes.

Ada dua artikel;
a. Early Telecommunications Devices

b. Categorizing Love

Since the last post was related with the 2nd article, so let's start the Next Chapter of "Mystery Love Story".

If you know Icha Rahmanti, the Author of "Cintapuccino" and "Beauty Case"

Now we are going to talk about the second book...

Where Icha starts to talk about, the phase in a young women's life. When she becomes the the Trophy for the most eligible bachelor in town. So, on my age of twenty-three now, I'm reaching this phase. When I start comparing the next guy I met with my ex, my long-term-open relationship (HTS, red).

Hmmm...
So, FYI, on my 23rd year of living, there's only one person who has the title as 'My Boyfriend'. He's name is Eddo. And I just met him again this year. We never really contacted each other since we graduated Middle School. Well, we dated on our 2nd year in Middle School. And lasted only approximately two months, wasn't it Do? I dunno, I can't really remember, since it was 10 years ago.

I felt really lucky that I had some one so caring like Eddo to be someone really special in my past. Thanks Do. And now he still cares for me, not even less than 10 years ago. And he studies at an institute of hotel & tourism management in Jakarta, near my house there. He just need to use one public transport about 15 minutes to get to my house.. Hehehe.. ;-P

Well, last night (Thursday 28th of May 2009), Eddo text me. I haven't saved his number yet so he got me guessing at the beginning and let me know on maybe his 4th messages. We did some nostalgia on the past. On how we used to be in middle school. How we missed that moment and everything. When he says he wants to have a private English lesson with me and said that he's afraid he couldn't concentrate if I was the teacher...Hahaha.. dasar kamu ya Do, masih jahil aja.. ;-P
I really do miss those times on my 2nd grade of middle school, when I used to remind you to study for mid test and pray Ashar at the school's mosque. can't wait to meet you next month Do... Really miss how you adore me.. ^_^

I also miss the moments of my senior year in middle school. When I was a kind of 'it' girl at school. Good grades in class, an OSIS general secretary and a senior of Girl's Basketball and Junior Red Cross. We won the 1st Junior Red Cross Competition for Middle Schools in Pekanbaru, we got the 1st place.. Yeay! Miss u all me friends...

hmmm... in Middle School I actually found my soulmate(s), best friends everyone ever wanted, my wonderful Fantastic Four and Wewe Gombel... Elvinnnooo, Cuitraaa, Rahmi Uni Lotek dan Dito 'si objek penderita'... Huhuhu.. can't wait for July 18 and 19.. Our beloved Citra Annisa's Wedding... Really happy for you and Bang Erick...
Hopefully I will get there soon cit... Wish me luck.. ;-P

And happy for Dito and Elvin, since they're having their graduation ceremony this coming October...





to be continued....
^_^

the next chapter of "Mystery Love Story"

Realize

by Colbie Caillat

Take time to realize,
That your warmth is
Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

C: If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
and will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.

V2: Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by
Didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you,
no it's never gonna be that simple
no I can't spell it out for you.

C: If you just realized what I just realized
then we'd be perfect for each other
then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.

V3: It's not always the same
no it's never the same
if you don't feel it too.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.

C: If you just realize what I just realized
then we'd be perfect for each other
then we'd never find another
Just realize what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder
Just realize what I just realized

If you just realize what I just realized

OoOoOOo

missed out on each other now
missed out on each other now

Realize, realize
realize, realize

***
Love the lyrics of this song and the music of every Colbie's song...
Keep Up the good work girl!

Singing: All the Love in the World - The Corrs

Maybe you're start to think I'm desperate, miserable and all those things...
But, here I'm on my twenty something of age, where every young women in the world will do every thing to get to sing the classic 'Mother How are you today?' song, and reached this verse...
"I found the knight of my dreams, maybe someday you will get to know him, promise you I'd be okay... Mother how are you today?"

Don't I look desperate and pathetic,
Once again I'm turning into Meredith Grey when she said to Derek Shepherd;
"Choose me! Pick me! Love me!" hehehehe... ;P

I'm not that desperado...
Just waiting for the best to come... :D
and starts singing this lovely song from The Corrs

XOXO,
-zha-

****

I'm not looking for someone to talk to
I've got my friends, I'm more than okay
I've got more than a girl could wish for
I live my dreams, but it's not all they say

Still I believe
(I'm missing...)
I'm missing something real
I need someone who releases me

(Don't want to wake...)
Don't want to wake up alone anymore
Still believing you'll walk in my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world

I've often wondered if love's an illusion
Just to get you through the loneliest days
I can't critisise it, I had no hesitations
My imagination just stole me away

Still I believe
(I'm missing...)
I'm missing something real
I need someone who releases me

(Don't want to wake...)
Don't want to wake up alone anymore
Still believeing you'll walk in my door
All I need is to know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world

<Guitar/Tin whistle solo>

Love's for a lifetime
Not for a moment
So happy, don't throw it away
I'm only human
And that's (?)brought colder(?)
With noone to love me that way

I need someone who releases me

(Don't want to wake...)
Don't want to wake up alone anymore
Still believeing you'll walk through my door
You'll reach for me and I'll know it's for sure
Then I'll give all the love in the world

(Don't want to wake up alone anymore)
All alone
(Don't want to wake up alone)
Just reach for me
(Don't want to wake up alone)
Don't want to be alone
(Don't want to wake up alone)
Don't want to wake up alone
(Don't want to wake up alone)
Let me know it's sure
(Don't want to wake up alone)
Still believe in someone
(Don't want to wake up alone)
When you reach for me
(Don't want to wake up alone)
Let me know it's for real

Meet Ronny. My New Partner in Crime :D

Okay. First, he's the top scorer on my list.

Why so? Because he only needs 3 times to make me consider to put him on this list. If you're following my blog. You'll know what I'm talking about.

Here's the thing. He's the kind of person who never takes thing seriously, he has a good sense of humor. The kind of person that would make you laugh for hours.

Just so you know, he succeeded making me laugh, till my stomach ache and I started to cry. And I can picture him hanging out with my all time favorite people in life, the Fantastic Four and Wewe Gombel. Hahahaha...
For the useless and hilarious things that we share...
Luv ya guys... ;-P

The 15th of May 2009. One of those days, where I WON!!! ^_^

It was a day where big things happened. The day where I turned from nobody to somebody. The day when my BFF, Elvin, told me to get married soon (Please deh vin, ama siapa coba???). The day when I nearly killed Tikki because she told me all those devious and sarcastic thing (That really popped-out in my mind Tik, seriously ). And finally, it was the day when I found out that me and my,hmmmm, friend Tronic kinda have a song. Okay, let's start with that one.

We were at the beginning together, seeing the fact that we have nothing to do with each other. We don’t even know each other. I was just this silly high school girl, with curiosity and a kind of crazy adventurous side of me. It sounds like one of those classic songs, the ones that last forever. This story definitely would start because of that song. The song, ‘our’ theme song, the Richard Marx and Donna Lewis song called “At the Beginning”. Yup, it was kind of your secret Nic for like SEVEN YEARS. Hellooooo…..
Its seven freaking years ago, and I just knew it because I forward my blog post to you? Okay, something’s WRONG here!!!

Now, that it’s so pointless nostalgic thing that I found out, more than 7 years from that fact. It totally freaked me out. It was so sweet that you remember, the song, that your friend played at the moment you receive my first text message. You know, I'm kinda thinking, what will happen if you told me this like, maybe in 2005, when we met. At my boarding house or at McD Dago Square. Will I be, the lady, the one that is there with you now?

I will answer that now.

No. Well, maybe you're gonna say, "What?".
Here's the thing, he was always Mr. Impossible to me, since maybe six years ago. He was never my prince. He was my soul mate. Yes, another part of me that stay's in he's body. He was the person who always says,"You really did a good job there, you better do something bigger". He was the one that helped me through my darkest year, my 1st grade in high school. Well, I actually knew him on the 2nd grade, but he actually give me the spirit, the courage to move on. He was the one who told me to read "Supernova:Ksatria, Putri dan Bintang Jatuh", which turns to be my first Indonesian Novel aside Lupus series. So, he really did something to my life. Something so good, that I would never make him my boyfriend. But, it's not that I never think of that. It's the thing that just went through my mind. But, I always know will never happen.

It's just like marrying my cousin, well, it's okay, but it'll be weird. Seriously. Everyone will start whispering at us. So, I'm happy that you're happy. That you have a cute son now. That you have a bright career in my dream company, Telkomsel. It will always stay that way.

Now, we will continue with the first thing. Me, turning from nobody to somebody. Yes, it happened yesterday. It was my first meeting as The Secretary of RSUD AA's ISO team. Well, I was really nervous about this. Because my boss was in Jakarta, for some other thing related to the hospital. It freaked me out also by the way. It's was like, loosing your general in a war. Hahahahaha... LOL! :D

But, it went sooooooo well, maybe just a few point below excellent. We got all the compliment. They even said my name out loud, like three times. To appreciate what I already prepared. How ready we are for this certification process. We kinda nailed it.

It's like, yesterday I was dr.A's daughter. Today I'm ME. The person who knows all the thing about ISO 9001:2008. Okay, yesterday was like one of those lecture that Mr.Togar or Mr.Mursyid or even Mr.Dermawan did. It was a one and a half semester packed into one week. Seriously, it was like living another week of my college years. Dealing with RATs, big projects, and of course doing my final project once more.

But this is what I really wanna do. Working hard for the things that I like. Doing things that I understand. Doing the thing that only I know how to do it. I like being 'out of the box'. Because I always think that way. I always try to put myself on other people's shoes. And here I am starting my career at a hospital. The biggest in Pekanbaru. Not as a doctor as I dreamed of when I was a kid. But as a future leader. The 'high achievers'. The person that SBM has shaped me. I never give up, that's why, I WILL ALWAYS WIN THE GAME!

Cheers,

ZaZa ^_^

Definitely, Maybe. From My Side

Maybe you guys know the movie, it's called Definitely, Maybe. The story is kinda unique to me. It's about a little girl, whose parents got divorced and lives with her dad. One day she was curious about her dad's love life and why he and her mom was separated.

Things are getting getting more interesting when dad told her the story, but it was in some kind of riddle. She called it "Mystery Love Story". It was hilarious you know. I'm definitely starting to love the movie at the very moment.

But maybe, one big thing that I got from this movie is, you never really get over you first love. Even if it's only a fling or a teenage crush. You definitely won't ever get over it.
Well, especially for me. I never really forget about my junior-high crush. But it gets better when I found this guy, whose like 1000 time better than my first crush. Well, he kinda taught me how to be me, the person who writes this. It's surely was not a fling or a teenage crush at all. It's because I never really truly get over him, until today. He's just incomparable to all those guys I've ever met. It has been like 7, SEVEN, years since I first knew him. And it became worst when I first met him like 4 years ago. Well, maybe it's because he's way older than me. Things will get so amazing if we hear and learn new things. At least for me. But here's the thing. There's always a bunch of guys trying to approach us, with many kinds of excuse. But for me, I only kept like less than half a dozen in my heart. For now, there's only FIVE.
The first guy would be, my teenage-crush. Who's always been around, until college.
Second would definitely be my all time favorite boy friend / online friend. Well to honour him let's just say his name, Tronic.
Third is...hmmm...let's see. My one only Best'boy'friend ever. Elvin. Haha. Kinda interesting story I had with this one.
Fourth. I'm still confused of which one should go 1st. Well, let's make it my last semester partner in college. He was like very dependent to me that time.
Finally, it's my classmate since the 1st semester till the 9th semester back in college. I just met him like 2 days ago and realize that, he's somebody. He's gonna be 'big' one day. He's a very idealist kind of guy, he's so poetic (hahaha...this one kinda tickles), and I just knew him the whole three years of college. I mean we spent most of our 2nd year being a partner in Palapa. Well, he's definitely got sumthin'.

Well, if you knew me. You'll know that, I don't fall easily. It'll take like a hundred effort to bring me down. These past two years for example. I never really had a thing for guys. They just short of come and go. But when I met or get in touch again w/ my old 'boy'friends. They just seem to get better.
Actually, a few months ago I had a crush for a guy. He's a junior doctor back at the Hospital. It's kinda weird how he attract me. I was at the mosque, I was just waiting for the zuhur prayers to start when I heard him do the Qomad. My head flew right up and there I saw him. It was such a nice voice anyway. Then, about a week later, I heard the nurse where kinda chatting and I overheard that he is a muallaf. Well, that's kinda sumthin, right? But, it'll take him to do a bunch of things before he gets on my list. Hoho..

So, don't get over your past. Live it and learn from it. You'll become a better you. You'll be a more fabulous person than you've ever dreamed of. I'll guarantee that. ^_^

As can you see, life is always a wonderful journey..
Http://awonderfuljourney.blogspot.com

Me Cutey Chubby- Tomato-Like ALI!

Miss you soooo Aliiii...

Ali pake baju kaos putih kaya' papanya

Find Me Replacement & I'm Gone

Sounds mad. Well kind of. It's just that I felt some people doesn't want me around anymore. A bit sensitive, maybe. But that's how it sounds. They kinda told me, to let go of the job. But my boss told me to stay. So, who should I listen to?

On the other hand, I felt that I'm capable in handling them both. I definitely can multitask. I'm really good at it. I had two jobs since January anyway.

So, if I think I can't handle the workloads anymore. You guys will be the first to know. Find sumone else, and I'm gonna go. That's for sure.

A Marvelous Weekend!!

I had a really fun weekend!! I went to Jakarta and meet up with my cousins and some friends.. these are some pics of the marvelous weekend... :)

@d lift of grha165

Thanks yet Sorry...

Thanks for the love you shared with me...
Thanks for the time you tried to squeeze in for me..
Thanks for the laughs we really enjoyed..
Thanks for believing in me, that I'd become something big, someday...
Thanks for the moments, all those wonderful thoughts of you cheered me up everytime..
Thanks for the little steps and big things you've done for me, all the way...

I do love you, in many ways..

But,
Sorry for being such a bad friend
Sorry for the little things that hurt your feelings..
Sorry for the rude and careless word I said..
Sorry for the tears you dropped for me and my ignorant behaviour..
Sorry for not being there for you when you're down..
Sorry for the memories, the ones where I'm being selfish and intolerant..
Sorry for not saying the truth when it'll hurt you even worse..
Sorry, that's all I can say..

I do love you, in many many different ways... :-)

***
To all my dearest friends... Thanks and Sorry..

Switch to Plan B

Yup, the decision is canceled for a while.

Now I got more challenge and opportunities here now, right where I'm now. I got an offer to do a research and a chance to become a CPNS. Nice right? So, for now, at least till the end of the year, I'll still be here for my family and for the sake of my future...

Cheers,
Zaza

I've Decided

Yes, I've decided to move back to Bandung on Juli or August. Because I was thinking that the job I have here doesn't give me anything in terms of knowledge. It only adds up my knowledge on other important health stuffs, especially around HIV/AIDS.
So, I decided to apply as tutor in School of Business and Management ITB while waiting for my graduate studies to start. So now I'm preparing my self for that, finding better boarding house, better way of living, better things than last time I was in Bandung.

So, guys just wait for me yaa...
See you soon...^_^

Loads of Happiness, Made the Stress Go Away

Yesterday I was too excited about he news that my big brother was accepted by BPK, that when knowing I didn't pass the administration selection of Pertamina, I was feeling more than OKAY.

Well, I thinks we just have to be Ikhlas about everything bad happening to us. But everything depends on the situation. If it wasn't fair for us, I really need like, hmmm, months to let go. But if the situation is like this, I'll let go, just like that.

Now, I don't really want to think about failing, but better find the good thing (hikmah) about what happened. Never hesitate that Allah SWT has always planned something much more better than this. So, just be more patient, don't get stressed out, and keep up the effort needed in achieving your goal.

Good luck!

On Being Thankful

Tadi siang sehabis zuhur, saya ikut pengajian di mesjid di RS AA Pekanbaru. Trus, si ustadz berceramah tentang 'Bersyukur'. Dia bilang kalau kita bersyukur pada Allah, itu untuk diri kita sendiri, bukan untuk orang lain. Jadi selalu bersyukurlah atas apa yang kita punya dan kita dapatkan. Berbaik sangkalah pada Allah, walaupun semua itu menurut kita hal yang sangat buruk.

Untuk berpikir begini, sangat sulit, saya juga tau kalau berubah, menjadi apapun itu hal yang sangat sangat sulit dilakukan. Jadi bersyukurlah, apapun yang kita miliki sekarang, itulah yang menurut ALLAH SWT yang paling baik untuk kita.

Semakin banyak kita mengucapkan "Alhamdulillah", Insya Allah semua usaha kita dimudahkan...Amin ya rabbal alamin... ^_^

Kind of Hurts

Yeah, it kind of hurt my feelings when seeing someone I knew die. Or even imagining that someone will pass away if I don't give them any help.

Today the medicine crisis in the clinic continues. It became obvious that the stock from the supplier is ZERO. What a marvelous condition.

How can those people continue living a healthy and normal life without those medicines?

Why can the government doesn't care enough to supply them immediately?

I'm just curious. Is it money? Is it bureaucracy? Or a human error?

We don't know yet. Hopefully the crisis will end soon and they can live a long healthy and normal life, amien!

Second Chance

Have you ever been given a second chance by God or other people around you?

Lots of people says, chance doesn't came twice in our life. But I've experienced a time when second chance comes.
Well, if you read my previous posts about me being rejected by several companies, I got a second chance by one of them.

I got a news from a friend about two months ago about this re-call. The company was calling us to have a re-test on our medical check-ups. So I flew far away from Pekanbaru to Jakarta just to follow this test, leaving my two jobs here.

But, maybe I'm not destined to be working there. I fail again.
It really hurts this time, a friend said, "It's worst than a broken heart". Hahaha....
She's definitely right, I can say for sure.

After a bit of thinking, I may say that, this is the way that Allah tells me that working there now isn't what I supposed to do. I really sure that Allah has prepared a good thing, an even better things to do in the near future. Hopefully, amien!

Details in the Fabric

by Jason Mraz feat. James Morrison

Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling on your threads and
Breaking yourself up

If it's a broken part, replace it
If it's a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it

And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
And everything will be fine

Hang on
Help is on the way
Stay strong
I'm doing everything

Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way

And everything
Everything will be fine
Everything

Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling

Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing

Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Everything

Hold your own
And know your name
And go your own way

Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling (Go your own way)

Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic (Go your own way)
Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine

Are the things that make you blow (Hold your own, know your name)
Hell no reason go on and scream
If you’re shocked it's just the fault (Go your own way)
Of faulty manufacturing

Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Hearts will hold

***
Don't panic, stay calm and face the world with optimism and positive mind.
hopefully you'll get the helping hands that you need...:)

Heartbreaking Scenes

At the beginning of this year, January 2009, I started to work at a clinic that serve people with HIV/AIDS. Well, I accepted the offer just so that I have a routine activity everyday. Not just sleeping, eating and watch TV every day...

The offer came from my mom's colleagues, they needed a hand on doing the administration stuffs in the clinic, so I took the opportunity.

The first month was quite hard for me, I listened to their problems, but have to keep my mouth shut and not tell anyone outside the clinic. Make reports that seems to be easy but needs accuracy and patients in making it.

The second month became better, but when I attend the Monitoring and Evaluation Training my head got very dizzy. There was several mistakes in the reports from Oct 2008 till Jan 2009, which means I need to revise them all...HUFF!!

But for me the hardest part of this job is not to involve to much emotion. Every day I see different expression, anger and reaction from all those suspected clients.
Sometimes I feel really sorry for them, but on the other hand I also think that some of the deserves to have disease.
I feel really sorry for wives who got the disease/virus from their spouse. They didn't do anything wrong in the past. Just marrying the wrong guy, the one that do dangerous and risky activities that caused the virus to come.
I feel so so bad for babies, little children who had the virus since they were born, from their parents. They look so sad, weak and made me wanna cry... :(

Well, now I'm getting used to all those situation.

So guys, I'd like to tell you that it's better you do a save sex, not using non sterile syringe, don't go to 'localization' (a.k.a rumah bordil) and have a safe and healthy life. I'm sure you will be just fine...

I'm Officially an Aunt! Haha :D

Yes, that's right!
Last week, March 4th 2009, my sister-in-law gave birth to a cute baby boy...
We named him ALI RASYID.
It felt awkward at the beginning, but delightful and amazing now. It's like a miracle seeing him grow every day since in his mom's tummy till he was brought up to the world..
Well, I've an aunt since...mmm..let's see, elementary school? Hahaha..yes, I'm the 2nd youngest grandchild in my mom's family, so my cousins are old enough to have children, that's why I've been an aunt for quite a long time.
Now, I just wanna share my love to little ALI and pray that he will grow to become a nice, bright and cheerful boy, amin..