Sunday, March 27, 2011

Pablo Neruda's Sonets

"Sonnet XVII

I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way than this:

where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep. "
Pablo Neruda

****

"If You Forget Me

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine"
Pablo Neruda



Saturday, March 26, 2011

dreams.

"It's not the matter of a big dream, it's our effort that matters. The bigger your efforts are, the bigger things you will get, even bigger than your dreams." - Iwan Setyawan

Two days ago I went to a book launching, it was 9 Summers 10 Autumns. I haven't read the book yet, but from the reviews it's an inspiring book. I got the invitation from a quiz on the internet I happened to follow.
The event was held in Oyster Restaurant in Plaza Senayan.

There were also music performance by Iwan Abdie, who was really cool and entertaining.

After listening to the author talked a bout his dreams. I realized that we simply can have really really small derams, but in the end this small dreams encourage us to bigger do things to get bigger things more than our dreams.

When I was a little girl, I always wanted to be a doctor, have a happy life and everything in it.
But, now here I am, not a doctor, a Management graduate, whose studying for a Masters degree. I'm pretty much happy with what I have now, but I have a lot of dreams to live up.

I have some in mind. get good job. Get married (yeah, of course ;P). and live a happy life :)

well, let's just enjoy life, and be grateful for everything we got.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

The Script - The Man Who Can't Be Moved

Going Back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move
Got some words on cardboard, got your picture in my hand
Saying, "If you see this girl can you tell her where I am?"

Some try to hand me money, they don't understand
I'm not broke I'm just a broken hearted man
I know it makes no sense but what else can I do
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you

'cause if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on the corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving

Policeman says, "Son you can't stay here"
I said, "There's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year"
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go

[Chorus:]
'cause If one day you wake up and find that you're missing me
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I could be
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet
And you'll see me waiting for you on our corner of the street
So I'm not moving, I'm not moving,
I'm not moving, I'm not moving

People talk about the guy that's waiting on a girl
There are no holes in his shoes but a big hole in his world

Maybe I'll get famous as the man who can't be moved
Maybe you wont mean to but you'll see me on the news
And you'll come running to the corner
'cause you'll know it's just for you
I'm the man who can't be moved

[Chorus 2x]

Going back to the corner where I first saw you
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag, I'm not gonna move

Monday, March 07, 2011

Lucky - Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat




by Jason Mraz feat. Colbie Caillat

Do you hear me,
Talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

***
One of my favorite song, heuheu..

It's over, even when it hasn't started yet

Another prove that I have no luck in this love and relationship department.

Here's why..

If you read my previous blog posts, you'll know that I'm trying to make things work with my best friend. And last Friday I went to Bandung to meet him.

We went out that night for dinner and movie at Parijs Van Java. Dinner was great, everything was delicious. And the movie was funny and very entertaining. I laugh much, I nearly cried.
Before going out, I text him to ask if it is okay if my cousin joined us. But he said he wants us to be alone, he needs to talk to me. Okay, so we're alone.
At dinner I asked him what did he want to talk about. He said he didn't wanna ruin the moment, he'll talk to me later, after our ride home.
I was really happy that night, that I thought he was gonna say something nice and sweet.

When we arrived at my uncle's house, I went in for awhile before we started talking.
So, there we are, sitting really close to each other. Then he starts talking, short sentences. I already see a lot of regrets in those short words. Until he said, Sorry. My heart sunked. I'm starting to have a bad feeling.
He said that we're not on the same page. Having a girlfriend or things like that isn't his priority now. He wants to finish school and get a job soon. That's what's important for him now. That time, it was really hard for me to breathe. My heart starts to shatter. But I tried not to cry in front of him. I want him to know that I can be strong, strong enough to bear all those news and sadness upon us.
He said he loves and cares for me like a bestfriend and sister. And he wants us to be bestfriends as always. And maybe in the years to come, if it's meant to be, we'll eventually be together.

So, I just want you to know, I don't need the status, I just need you to be there for me, to care for me in what ever condition I'm facing. You, just being there will be a huge help. I thank you for that.

In the end, I'm proud of myself, I can face you yesterday with a smile and all those silly jokes like we never had those conversations.
I have to move on, find somebody else who loves me more and wants to be with me. But, for the very last time, I hope we still have a chance. I want to give it one more try, I don't know when, maybe when you're ready. If we're meant to be, then we'll be together.

Btw, he posted this Note on his Facebook the night after we had the talk.

To a Friend, With Love..

I am sorry...
That door doesn’t open for both of us at the same time
This place doesn’t belong to us in the mean time
But please, still be walking with me
Sharing our joy with them like we're used to be
This painful moment will get by
Along with those tears and cry
You know,
It hurts when I see you’re hurt
It makes me sad when I know you’re sad
So, cheer up!
Your best friend is always here...


Bandung, March 4 2011

To a friend, with love...
a best friend's Love.


Thanks for that dear bestfriend :)

Tuesday, March 01, 2011

Yours Truly - A Great Indonesian Short Film ;)

YOURS TRULY - Short Film from Cine et Cetera on Vimeo.