Wednesday, January 30, 2008

When a Man Lost a Women; a Novel by Ita Sembiring


It's a nice book, it has poets in the beginning of every chapter..these are my favorites...

"Tetapi...coba tanyakan padanya, mengapa sudi dipecundangi cinta. Yakinlah, laki-laki itu pasti tertawa. Menertawakan pertanyaanmu yang dianggapnya bodoh, lalu bekata, 'Kalau kau pernah mengecap cinta, kau tak akan pernah bertanya.'"

"Palingkanlah matamu daripadaku, sebab aku menjadi bingung karenanya."

"Seperti makanan enak-enak yang disajikan kepada mulut terkatup, demikianlah pesajian yang di tempatkan diatas kubur."

"Jangan menyerahkan kepada kesedihan, dan jangan pula menyiksa dirimu dengan disengaja."

"Karena mereka tidak dapat tidur bila tidak berbuat jahat. Kantuk mereka lenyap bila mereka tidak membuat orang tersandung."

"Air yang banyak tak dapat memadamkan cinta, sungai-sungai tak dapat menghanyutkannya."

"Ceritakanlah kepadaku, jantung hatiku, di mana Kakanda menggembalakan domba, di mana kakanda membiarkan domba-domba berbaring pada malam hari."

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Saya Bukan Manusia Sempurna

ya, hanya itu yang dapat saya ucapkan saat ini
saat orang - orang menuntut kesempurnaan dari saya

saya tidak bisa focus pada satu hal, saya akan melakukan banyak hal, banyak rencana dalam satu waktu

saya punya mimpi besar tentang hidup saya 5 - 10 tahun lagi. hanya mereka yang mengerti saya yang bisa memahami nya.

mereka yang tidak, hanya akan bilang, "ah, gak usah muluk - muluk" tapi bagi saya ini sebuah keinginan untuk jadi lebih baik.

saya selalu berpikir, banyak hal yang bisa saya perbuat untuk orang2 yang telah mengisi hidup saya, hanya yang ada sedikit kesempatan untuk mewujudkannya. hidup terus berlanjut, gak mudah untuk melalui nya.

tapi ini hanya sebuah pernyataan, bukan perlawanan, hanya bercerita, bukan menyebar berita.

Monday, January 28, 2008

Big Girls Don't Cry

by Fergie

Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS:]
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps 'til I'm full grown, full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they?
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay

[CHORUS]

Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'Cause I want to hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself and center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

[CHORUS]

La Da Da Da Da Da
***

Yupz...we do not cry in front of alot of people..
we just need a time alone and have our own time..

Kangen kalian semua...


Kangen suasananya...
Kangen gelak tawanya
Kangen becandaannya
kangen jalan - jalannya
kangen cerita - ceritanya
Kangen kebiasaan kita
menjelajahi kampus tercinta
mencari 'pemandangan' yang menyejukkan mata
dan hati kita
Bahagia, tawa, canda dan duka
Yang telah kita lalui bersama...

Sunday, January 20, 2008

One of the Toughest Part in Life: Finding the Right Job

Well, this journey starts at a part of my life where i was on my final year of college.

yes, it was when the career service team of SBM starts to tell us to start to figure out where we're going to work when we graduate, what short of job we really want and all that kind of stuffs.

well, my journey starts when i applied for P&G, i think it was in the beginning of 2006. i did all the things that i should do, but the internet in ITB was so lame and pathetic, so it made things worser... in this first journey, I FAILED!

then, i can't really remember which one was the second.
during those times i was always applying for nearly all job offered by the SBM Career Service. Until the time on July 2007 when they held the 1st SBM's Career Fair. I applied to 10 companies out of 12 (i guess).

after that i always checked my SBM email and apply for the companies that interest me.

about a month before my graduation ceremony, there was an email notification that i am eligible to follow recruitment process in two companies, Brittish American Tobacco ands Garudafood. After struggling for 2 long days, eventually I FAILED AGAIN!

During the fasting month, i got a really surprising call from one of my dream company, BANK MANDIRI. for this one i flew miles away from Pekanbaru to Jakarta. I got a bit lucky this time. I pass the first tests, which was TOEFL test. But I FAILED on the second test, Apptitude Test.

Then, a about two weeks after my graduation ceremony, i got a notification from HSBC. WOOOOWWW... i was so thrilled that time. i followed the test, but at the moment i already know that I'M FAILING. well, it came true.

next, if i'm not forgotten, was a futures excahnge company in Pekanbaru. it wasn't a big company, but they also DID'NT ACCEPT ME!

then, i applied for english teacher post in LBPP LIA. that time i was really counting on this one. but, unfortunately i failed on the 4th test...ohh..daammn...

i move on to get more application...

i got a call from PT Fastfood Indonesia a.k.a KFC, i did the interview, but haven't heard anything from them since then...

the last one would be, one of the biggest media group in Indonesia, MNC. for this one i also flew miles away from home...it was a really exhausting 1 day test. the next day i know I FAIL Again! FYI, in this recruitment process, there were 11,000 applicants, +/- 1,000 was called for test, and finally there will only be 30 people hired...wooww...

hmmm...i really have no clue where this journey will end. i just can keep on hoping, praying, and believing, that Allah has prepared a really great place for me...

Friday, January 04, 2008

Cinta datang
Cinta pergi
Ia berlalu sesuka hati
Tapi ia selalu mengisi ruang kosong di relung hati

Untuk keluarga
Untuk sahabat
Untuk kekasih

Cinta selalu disini
Memberi warna hari–hari…

Pekanbaru, Desember 2007

Hati ini...

Ya, aku pernah mencintainya dengan sepenuh hatiku…
Aku pun pernah membencinya dengan segenap jiwaku…

Sekarang,
Semua itu hilang
Tiada beban
Tiada perasaan berlebihan
Kami hanya berteman
Berbagi pesan,
Kesan
Tanpa dendam

Ini terasa lebih menyenangkan…

Pekanbaru, November 2007